Oh look, im making a journal.


Well, various things have been happening. i got a lap top. i might even get the sims 3- which is exciting; schools started, and i like all of my classes, except maybe geometry. i was elected as historian for show choir. so with this new lap top, i have not installed any of the office program yet. which stinks, because right now, i really want to be expressing my self, and since ive decidedim going writing, i can't really do anything about. pardon my spelling, grammer and capatiliztion errors, im tired and im just writing this to vent really. Well, i think monday my boy friend broke up with me. i didn't really care. i felt like we just called out selves something different; we were never really looking at each other in a romantic way. I guess that my hopeless romantic part of me speaking. so i was in a pretty good today, and when im in the those moods i get really excited and just want to scream around and stuff. Songs mostly helped with that, and for the past half hour ive been listening to Avril Lavigne, which can be really hopeful or depressing. so it's kinda harping on my good mood, but whatever. The song im listening to right now really wants to make me express my self, but with no typing avalible, and my amazing drawing skills and not-in-the-mood to dance right know im kinda lost. i could right, but i don't know what to. i just want to type really, i find it easier when i type for the words to just come out as a type, this happens when im writing too, but i just don't feel like it. im really tired. i need to study for my biology quizam thats tomorrow. but i really don't want to
it seems that i bottle up my emotions a lot and that's often why i want to scream at random times of the day, ask people what they would do if i threw something at them, or just hurt them because there presence is annoying me for some reason, i apologize if ive ever done that to you. i wore leggings today, and it was very akward. i don't think anyone told me you could kinda see my underwear until 6th period. im kinda goi ng through a hype right know, i just want to know if i can get the sims 3, because it
s actually an option know, my family computer would've never been able to run that type of game with the amazing graphics that make it amazing. i should stop rambleing now, but like the energizer bunny, i just want to keep going, ang going, thinking about everylittle thing in my life, examing how no one responds the way id like, or how i wish i was payed more attention, possibly why i want to be famous, for something, because sometimes it just doesn't seem like im good at anything. im ok at singing, not horrible, not bad. the only thing im good at is thinking outside and between the lines and knowing about history. but anyone can do that; i also think that im going to be something important to the world; but a lot of people feel like that and there not.

I watched "Stephen Hawkin's Into the universe" the other day, and he practically said, "we won't be able to travel back in time." Unless we want to kill space time and fabric. he kinda killed me inside when he said that. me being all history esque, ive always wanted to go back in time. books are the best option, or museums. but to go truely back in time would be amazing. he did say that we could go into the future. i really don't want to go into that right now though, my head hurts. lets just say you have to go pretty darn fast to do it.


ill stoip boring you know. goodnight folks.